(No Name)

I wrote this poem the other week and have finally decided to post it on here. It is an original poem by me so I hope you like it.

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My body has become my prison;

my mind, the ruthless jailer.

He torments me constantly by snuffing out the lights,

keeps me alone, and convinces me not to eat.

The cell fills with water and causes me to dig into the rock for air.

The twist though is that instead of a spoon, I wield a thin blade.

The blade causes red rivers to flow from the wall and offers me little relief…

The water continues to rise yet it never fills completely.

I am pushed to the limits each and everyday and sleep is my only relief.

Sleep however is a rare grace that leaves me quickly.

A wizard has managed to get me some “magic” pills to free me.

The pills do nothing however… so much for a wizard and an escape.

The only escape I have found so far lies within the minstrel’s melodies,

which flow through the twisted pipes.

I continue to seek for a  permanent freedom while trying to survive each grueling day.

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I hope you have a great day and stay safe. 🙂

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A Realization While Diving

I’ve realized something in a lot more depth just recently. Whenever someone I care about is sinking deeper under the waves I will send down an oxygen tank and a long rope and I’ll start to help them back up to the surface. I won’t rest, pause, slow down, or let them let go until I can give them the final push and see their head breach the surface. I won’t rest until they breathe in the fresh cool air and only then will I take a moment to rest until I see the waves start crashing into someone’s head as they begin to slip under the surface and take a deep breath to try and keep going.

This however isn’t my realization, my realization is the fact that I give them a final push up towards the surface. The thing is that when they reach the surface they are far above me which is why I can’t pull them the final way up. I pull them as far as I can and then as they pass me I position myself under them so that I can push on their feet and help them taste the salty air once again. The sad thing is that I’ve been submerged for a long time and over the past couple years I’ve had to push their feet upwards farther and farther from the waves as I continue to sink deeper into the quiet depths below.

I don’t know if I will ever taste the salty air again, or feel the cool air fill my lungs and blow across my face. I’ve been under for too long and I’m afraid that if I were to surface I would lose sight of everyone still struggling to reach the surface. The only thing that has kept me from sinking faster is the fact that my friends that are above me or next to me often help hold me steady, but it’s not enough to hold me for long since they are also trying to breathe again and keep living their lives.

Why “Relentless Protector”

So the creation of this category was actually pretty spontaneous and it’s creation is more or less just for somewhere to put my more personal posts. I came up with this name for the category when I was talking to my best friend. I had asked her what she would name her band if she made one and why. After a few minutes of thinking she gave me two possible names and they were some really good names. Her reasons made them so much cooler and more meaningful as well. Then, she asked me the same question which made my brain sort of freeze up before beginning to slowly and methodically think of a band name. It took me longer than her but I finally thought of a name I really liked. I told her that I would name the band “Relentless Protector.” I chose this name because I want to be able to protect and be there for as many people as I can. I added the word  relentless because I’m the kind of person that won’t give up on you no matter what I happens; I will stay by your side even if everyone else abandons you.

A few minutes after we had moved on from that topic I realized that I really want to write about what I go through and in a way why I am the way I am, so I decided to make a new section on here and name it after my hypothetical band.

Thank you for reading and I hope you have a great day. Stay Safe. 🙂